It’s almost been a month, at times it feels much shorter and other times it feels so much longer. We’ve continued to have our ups and downs, but we get through it all one way or another. If conversations about cake and Half Life headcrabs are what is able to bring us out of weird moods then I’m glad we are able to snap out of it like that. It’s really funny now that I look back on those conversations, it’s amazing to think that a conversation about dessert can change the mood in the room so drastically. Regardless of what it was, I’m glad we are able to change subjects when need be and that we know how to get ourselves out of the strange moods.
A major topic of conversation lately has been time and the differences between high school relationships and college relationships. It’s hard to describe in words, but it seems that things move faster when in a relationship in college than they did during high school. I’ve decided that the main reasons for this is that now that we are in college, we are not only older and more mature, but we are on our own. We control our time, with no parents present to tell us what we can and can not do. There are no restrictions as to when we can see each other and hang out. No car rides to the other person’s house, just a short walk to the other’s room, with the only thing preventing us from doing anything being classes and homework and the occasional side activity. I’m not sure what more I wanted to say about this except that it has come up in conversation a lot and I find the whole concept intriguing and interesting. I definitely plan to continue to try and compare and understand the differences, as well as to possibly figure out why a month in a college relationship covers more ground than that of a high school relationship.
What I really wanted to write about tonight though was in regards to thoughts of the future that I’ve been having lately. These thoughts are kind of along the same line as the concept of time discussed above regarding relationships, but this I feel is a little more in depth than just the length of a relationship. I’m almost done with my second year of college, meaning that in about two months I will be half way through my college career. In about two years I will be graduating with a physics bachelor’s degree and hopefully a computer science minor. Then, if all goes according to plan, I’ll be enrolling in a 2 year graduate program to get my masters degree in medical physics. So theoretically, I have to survive through 4 more years of school to achieve the goals that I want to achieve. Hopefully I don’t get sick of school before then. Anyways, at the end of this year I will be turning 21… life is moving fast. For some reason, I’ve had thoughts, some dreams even (day dreams mostly), about me getting married and having kids. I’ve always thought about my wedding and having kids, as I’m sure everyone has had at some point or another, but lately these thoughts have been recurring more frequently. I am kind of enjoying them. It’s exciting to think about the future, but scary at the same time. My mom was 26 when she had me, 29 when she had my brother. Theoretically I’d like to have kids before I’m thirty, or at least before I reach my mid thirties, I want to be around when my kids have kids. To think that I could be married and have kids of my own within ten years is exciting and down right scary at the same time. I’m not sure where I was going with this topic or if I was even trying to get to a point. Simply writing this out is enough for me right now. Life is so exciting and I’m really getting to realize this now. I’m so thankful for that.
Spring break starts on Friday, I’ll be glad to go home for a week and see my family and dogs, and sleep in my big bed! And the break from classes and work is very much needed. The hiatus from my friends and my boyfriend is not welcoming, but I (we) will manage just fine… stupid conversations can make such a big difference! 
~ JenJen ~
